Surrendering

 Sometimes our trust in God is put to the test, and boy was my trust- and managing my anxiety- tested, as of late.  I have been planning a YouTube video on the infamous Surrender Novena for awhile now.  It is still in the filming phase, but first I wanted to actually pray it through a series of nine days, to testify to its effects.  Well, it wasn't long after those days that I went through some minor health difficulties.  (As many of you may already know, I deal with a few chronic health problems.  But don't worry, everything turned out fine in the end of these recent difficulties.)  As time went on, one after another, I began to wonder "what next?" "is it going to get worse?" "not now!"

Then I remembered the many times I had gone to the doctor for a nerve-racking checkup, took a good look at an image of Jesus and said firmly: I trust in You.  So many times now, this has given me not only better blood pressure readings, but a more positive outlook when facing symptoms.

I am called to repeat these words every time I must go forward in courage in taking care of my health or some other challenging "mission."  And this recent novena of surrender has led me to not only trust, but strive to LET GO of the anxiety, and the fear of a worst-case, foreseen-scenario. 

But I don't want to quite give away my intro for the video!  Stay tuned on YouTube and Facebook under "A Catholic Presence" as me and my husband share this beautiful novena with you, and what I continue to learn from it.